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MyNoise/Questioning: Carboniferous
Oct. 31st, 2023 07:43 pmI had been watching Life On Our Planet with Birch and definitely a lot of the creatures were giving me cameo shifts. But none has stuck with me like the maybe 20 seconds they showed of Anthracosaurus. I don't know why I'm already questioning them. I only just watched the episode that featured them yesterday. But I was just sitting awake in bed ruminating on it last night. Normally, when I get a cameo shift caused by a nature documentary like this, I'm fully aware it's just a cameo. I never questioned dromaeosaurs or Komodo dragons after my documentary binge for my resource post, because I knew my brain was just having a little fun. It wasn't serious. The only time it felt so serious was when it was mosasaurs and look where that got me after a year of denial.
And I feel like I can't possibly be an Anthracosaurus therian but then when I think "Hypothetically, if I was though--" I get like... almost sick with excitement? I LOVE the idea of stuff like announcing it and being one in an alterhuman setting -- if I think about that stuff with other things I get "vibes" from -- say for example, leopard seals or early whales, I dismiss it immediately because I know it's not genuine or true and it feels confidently inaccurate. Thinking about telling someone I am an Ambulocetus therian doesn't make any sense, because I know I'm not, despite the shifts and feelings and even familiarity when I see them. Thinking about telling someone I am an embolomere is exciting. And I know it's not the clout of having a rare theriotype because what could be more impressively out-there than a whale ancestor? But I feel like it almost HAS to just be paratyping out of mosasaurs, right? But there's also all those times I questioned or flickered or cameoed creatures from the Godzilla/The Beast from 1,000 Fathoms genre of sea monster movies and this being the closest real animal to that that's ever existed.
Anyways, I was of course thinking hard about the Carboniferous period and its environments, specifically swamps of course, and whether I would feel at home or was drawn to them. So I made a MyNoise. And I do really like it. But the strangest thing about it is that it doesn't feel accurate -- I can tell it's not perfect.
And I feel like I can't possibly be an Anthracosaurus therian but then when I think "Hypothetically, if I was though--" I get like... almost sick with excitement? I LOVE the idea of stuff like announcing it and being one in an alterhuman setting -- if I think about that stuff with other things I get "vibes" from -- say for example, leopard seals or early whales, I dismiss it immediately because I know it's not genuine or true and it feels confidently inaccurate. Thinking about telling someone I am an Ambulocetus therian doesn't make any sense, because I know I'm not, despite the shifts and feelings and even familiarity when I see them. Thinking about telling someone I am an embolomere is exciting. And I know it's not the clout of having a rare theriotype because what could be more impressively out-there than a whale ancestor? But I feel like it almost HAS to just be paratyping out of mosasaurs, right? But there's also all those times I questioned or flickered or cameoed creatures from the Godzilla/The Beast from 1,000 Fathoms genre of sea monster movies and this being the closest real animal to that that's ever existed.
Anyways, I was of course thinking hard about the Carboniferous period and its environments, specifically swamps of course, and whether I would feel at home or was drawn to them. So I made a MyNoise. And I do really like it. But the strangest thing about it is that it doesn't feel accurate -- I can tell it's not perfect.
