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Song: New Day
Aug. 10th, 2023 03:43 pmI've decided to do a potentially infinite series of posts on specific songs, how I feel about them, what they mean to me, analyzing them, etc. For ones like this, these are songs I relate to regarding some aspect of my identity -- specifically, for New Day, adhd. I have two long playlists of songs I associate with my neurodivergence. (One for mental illness and one for adhd/autism.) I figured it'd be the best song to start with because it's the most obvious, most blatantly actually about the thing I associate it with.
New Day Spotify link
The songwriter, Penny Parker, has stated she does have adhd, so I don't know how this song could be about anything else. When I first heard it, I imagined it being about a time loop. "One glance at the TV / again it's the evening / a sick kind of replay / better luck on a new day." And I think time loops are a pretty good metaphor for adhd. It feels like one. Every day, you wake up with the intent to get these things done, and every day you wake up with things exactly how they were last night. She talks about boxes stacked in the dining room -- having just moved in, I presume, and every day she intends to unpack and fully move into her new home, but every morning when she wakes up those same boxes sit there unopened. I think the situation of moving in is perfect for this feeling above anything. What is more appropriate to explain executive dysfunction than being unable to unpack and move in? -- unable to really settle into this place, and feel like you're home. You'll always be restless and feeling like you aren't home. You're just a visitor. Nothing is permanent.
"I felt the most alive / Last I was strained / Out of my mind" and "I'm just a little in the weeds here / It dulls when I am on the move." Banality is the death of executive function. It is so much easier to snap into a proactive mindset when the need is dire. Stress is your motivator, but it shouldn't be. It's not healthy to choose stress, put so much strain on your mind and body all the time just to be able to do the laundry or engage in your hobbies. But your mind seems to go numb when there's nothing to do but watch TV.
"Standing in fog severe / Throughout the year" is the most obvious adhd line. Brain fog is torture. It drains you of all life. And to have it as a symptom of adhd, which isn't something that ever goes away, to have to work through brain fog 365 days a year, it starts to wear down your ability to do anything, motivate yourself, be productive. That's not even factoring in executive dysfunction, which is a whole different psychological phenomenon that's also part of adhd. Though both stem from a starvation of dopamine in the frontal lobe.
Eh... I don't feel like writing a conclusion. I'll do it later.
New Day Spotify link
The songwriter, Penny Parker, has stated she does have adhd, so I don't know how this song could be about anything else. When I first heard it, I imagined it being about a time loop. "One glance at the TV / again it's the evening / a sick kind of replay / better luck on a new day." And I think time loops are a pretty good metaphor for adhd. It feels like one. Every day, you wake up with the intent to get these things done, and every day you wake up with things exactly how they were last night. She talks about boxes stacked in the dining room -- having just moved in, I presume, and every day she intends to unpack and fully move into her new home, but every morning when she wakes up those same boxes sit there unopened. I think the situation of moving in is perfect for this feeling above anything. What is more appropriate to explain executive dysfunction than being unable to unpack and move in? -- unable to really settle into this place, and feel like you're home. You'll always be restless and feeling like you aren't home. You're just a visitor. Nothing is permanent.
"I felt the most alive / Last I was strained / Out of my mind" and "I'm just a little in the weeds here / It dulls when I am on the move." Banality is the death of executive function. It is so much easier to snap into a proactive mindset when the need is dire. Stress is your motivator, but it shouldn't be. It's not healthy to choose stress, put so much strain on your mind and body all the time just to be able to do the laundry or engage in your hobbies. But your mind seems to go numb when there's nothing to do but watch TV.
"Standing in fog severe / Throughout the year" is the most obvious adhd line. Brain fog is torture. It drains you of all life. And to have it as a symptom of adhd, which isn't something that ever goes away, to have to work through brain fog 365 days a year, it starts to wear down your ability to do anything, motivate yourself, be productive. That's not even factoring in executive dysfunction, which is a whole different psychological phenomenon that's also part of adhd. Though both stem from a starvation of dopamine in the frontal lobe.
Eh... I don't feel like writing a conclusion. I'll do it later.
